So Scared

I couldn't sleep last night.  And it was doubly hard for me at work today.  I wasn't able to concentrate at the work at hand.  I got teary eyed during the ride home.  And I was feeling so desperate and scared at the same time. I think I can go crazy any minute now.

No amount of reassurance from boyfriend can make me feel secure at the moment.  And when I look at my baby, I want to tell her that I'm truly sorry if ever what I'm so scared becomes a reality.

I'm praying like I'm praying for my dear life.  Because it is what it is.  I am praying for dear life right now.

If ever you don't hear from me again, it's probably I have gotten so terrified that I can't blog about it.

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